This is the last email that lisa sent to me. I think that is says so much about who she was as a person and her feelings. Please share it with anyone that you feel would like to see it.
Love,
Rodney
Subj: Thank You Date: 4/13/2002 6:43:57 PM Eastern Daylight Time From: ROANGLBRAT To: TheR0Gtr Sent on: AOL 7.0 for Windows US sub 121
Just writing you a note to say thank you for the bubble watch I recieved it today but I wanted to comment on you saying It has to be dark to see the stars.... Which is not totally true.... Because the best star you saw during the day.... It is the biggest star of all and without it there would be no rainbows and besides I have Glow stars on my ceiling and Butterflys on my wall... so I can still see em during the day.... <GIGGLE> It's been a plessure being a fan of R0.... because without her I would not have met so many wonderful people that I have.... I have made many friends thru Rosies place.... and it was somewhere where I could fit in... Though people did not want to believe me about how often I get sick.... it helped me to distinguish who my true friends were..... because my true friends stood by me.... I still have e-mails from Sept 98 that some of the roomies sent me when I was in the hospital... THOSE were the longest 4 days of my life..... but I made it thru and I will continue to make it thru... and one day I'll be a bright and shiny star that others can look up to.... and those that need help I will be able to help.... I read the excerpt from Rosies book Find Me.... and she commented that She is a scared adult but she does not think it shows... In a way she is right... but I could sence it.... which is why I told you all the things that I did to tell her.... and there is one other thing I would like for you to tell her... It's okay to be scared.... we are all scared.... but with the help of friends, Our Father and Jesus we will make it thru just fine.... the not knowing is what is the scariest part.... but if you live for today and not for tomorrow or the past... You will find those are the best days.... There will never be too many I Love You's or enough hugs....... the more the better....... The brightest stars are the ones that overcome the past and use it to help others thru their difficult times.... we all have bad in our lives but if we remember we are never alone then its not half as bad as it could be because good things to come with patience..... Thank you for always being there.... and thank you for showing me that all Guys are not bad....
Take Care and God Bless until we can chat again... Tomorrow night my e-mail will be close to everyone as I move the 23rd... my things get shipped this week......
Subject: My Memories of Lisa Date: 4/17/2002 3:15 PM Eastern Daylight Time From: HOST R0 Pokey Message-id: <20020417151557.04419.00006273@mb-fi.aol.com>
What can I say.. This is a sad time for this clown. I don't know how long I have known Lisa.. It's been years..I've been with R0 so long I lose count. We used to talk more but as of late, I have been so busy with life. Now I understand what they mean about not taking things for granted. Each year I would receive a special card for Christmas from Lisa. She even made me a special clown ornament for my tree. All I had to do was mention that I was trying to collect clown ornaments and I hoped to someday to have a Christmas tree of only clowns.. and being the special and caring person that she was.. she made me one. Strange thing tho... I never put it away with my other Christmas things. I left it on a shelf in my living room.. where it is to this day. I was so proud that she thought so much of me to take the time.. with her schedule and illnesses .. to make me such a wonderful thing .. I just couldn't bring myself to put it away. I will miss her so much. Pokey This is a copy of the poem she put in her last mail to me.
Our lives are filled with simple joys and blessings without end, And one of the greatest joys in life is to have a friend.
Subject: In Loving Memory of Lisa aka Roanglebrat Date: 4/17/2002 11:07 AM Eastern Daylight Time From: Momwhappykids
I was looking in the many emails that Lisa sent me and I found one that she wrote and emailed me when my grandfather passed away in March 2002 at the age of 102 years old. She wanted to comfort me..That is how Lisa was very caring.
I thought it was appropriate to post her lovely poem in her memory. I only changed names in the poem to reflect her.
With Angel's Wings:
May Jesus lift you Lisa up with Angel's Wings... where no more sadness, no more pain will be had... May He give you wings so you may guide those here on Earth that need the guidance of an Angel... Though this is a sad time for all that love you... You are not sad anymore... You are the happiest of happiest... For into our Loving Father's arms you have gone... All your troubles... all your worries... all your sadnes... all your pain... Is now gone for they floated away when you were received into the Great Kingdom of heaven... There are other worlds to sing in... other worlds to laugh in and other worlds where only Happiness, Smiles, Love, Joy and Peace exists... No bad things allowed for they are banished from His Kingdom... Where one day those that believe In Jesus Christ and Our Loving Father and try their very best all go... And we join those that we felt we lost along the way... Because we never really lose them they just are gone to another world to sing and bring more joy... as we keep them right here in our hearts...
By, Lisa aka ROANGLBRAT@AOL.com
emailed to momwhappykids2aol.com on March 11, 02 In Memory of Lisa..
Their isn't enough words to say how sad I am with Lisa's passing. She was a wonderful young lady. Always loving to all. We had a good time with her in the chat rooms and she loved talking about her nieces and nephews. We have all been blessed to have know Lisa. I will always remember her loving ways and her poems. We shared a love for angel dolls and now she's one. I will keep you in my prayers always Lisa. It was an honor to be your friend. Rest in peace. Sue
Heart of an Angel By: Michelle Chabala In memory of Lisa Duval (aka ROANGLBRAT@aol.com)
Such a good friend you were, Always willing to help another. Living in the age of computers, some of your friends never had the pleasure of meeting you face to face. Although I knew you only from the internet, I appreciate the friendship that you gave to me. With your love of angels, You were always nice to everyone. Never a cruel word was said by your mouth or keyboard. During your life, you had a heart like an angel. Now, in your unfortunate passing, you have the heart of an angel.
bELOW IS AN IM BETWEEN LISA AND i WHILE SHE WAS VISITING IN NORTH CAROLINA. sHE WAS SO HAPPY, THIS STILL MAKES ME SMILE.
Begin IM - 7/19/9905:04 PM
ROANGLBRAT:CARA******
ROjunkie:hey Lisa how are you?
ROjunkie:having fun?
ROANGLBRAT:not staying on long but could not jump off with out saying hi because I miss you sooo much
ROANGLBRAT:I am burned
ROjunkie:been wondering where you've been LOL
ROANGLBRAT:but yes I am having fun caught my first fish today
ROANGLBRAT:and it was my first time fishing
ROjunkie:cool.. what kind?
ROANGLBRAT:it was a spot fish
ROANGLBRAT:I guess that is what it is called
ROANGLBRAT:it was small but good sized good kind for eating
ROjunkie:never heard of that LOL
ROANGLBRAT:and I went sailing yesterday
ROANGLBRAT:we almost got tipped over
ROANGLBRAT:I steered the sail boat too
ROANGLBRAT:that was a furst
ROANGLBRAT:first
Subj:
Hi
Date:
3/27/03 10:49:11 PM Eastern Standard Time
From:
To:
Hi,
I'm Lisa's friend. She called me her Grammy.
Well, I still miss Lisa - I can't seem to delete her email address. However, I do chat a little with Lisa's Mom, Theresa.
Lisa and I chatted online many nights until 3 or 4 a.m. her time. I am in Huntington Beach, CA., 3 hrs. earlier. We had many discussions. Some silly, some sharing her wonderful talents, some religion, arguing about the Bible, somethings that bothered her. Many nights when she was sooo sick coughing and had a hard time breathing, she would still be on the computer.
I scolded her for leaving home, and she laughed about it. Many times, she called me from her new cell phone, when she lived in Florida. I tried to persuade Lisa to go home. She was sick and needed care. She needed to be with her family. She so badly wanted to come to California again, but she never made it.
Lisa and I became friends through a Prayer Site. She started emailing me and we would pray for each other. She had a lot of writing talent I did try to encourage her to go on to school, but she would put herself down saying she couldn't do it. I looked up schools where she could qualify for financial aid, but I think she was afraid to try it. She was a proud girl, and said she would only go on to school, if she could pay for the education herself.
She had a lot of confusion about life in general. Many times I scolded her about things I didn't approve of and she would just tell me, "Grammy, I'm going to click you off, Change the subject". So it went. A few times, she did click me off. Often sending an email telling me she was sorry.
We had laughs many times. She would record her voice, singing a song that she liked or a song that she wrote. She knew she couldn't sing. She would laugh and once said, "Grammy my voice stinks" and I said, "You're right", and we both laughed about it. It was high pitched and out of tune, but God love her, she tried.
I am so sad that she is gone, but I know she is with Jesus. She wrote a lot about Him. We chatted about Jesus all the time. She was a sweet little, petite young woman, who was snuffed out of this earth, leaving all who loved her, behind. But I know she is with Our Savior. God Bless Lisa Duval
Lisa... I wish that I had known her longer and that I had known her better, but our time in each others' lives was short. She was the type of person that would send an email just to make you smile. That would help you in an instant if you called on her. She was looking for a better life than the one that she was born into and she was actively making it better day by day and step by step.
April 15th 2002 changed my world as I knew it. I realized that I had taken life for granted for too long. Lisa was about my age-19-and her life that was just about to truly begin when it ended. I remember it well...I was on break outside of my classroom here in NYC at SFT when I received the phone call from Cara (ROjunkie) telling me that she had died.
It was all so sketchy at that time what really happened to her, but it didn't matter because she was gone and nothing could change that. It still leaves me lost now because it happened to quickly and there have been so many stories. All I know is that she is gone now and for some reason she touched my life and so many others...this website is proof of that. Lisa was always talking about angels and her poetry was so spiritual and I used to think that it was childish, but now I think that I was childish because I really do feel that she is an angel. Why else would someone as kind and generous as her be removed from the Earth so quickly?
Recently my computer crashed and I lost everything. The one thing I was sad over is losing Lisa's old web page....... I couldn't get her out of my head... What a sweet little angel she was, to have went home so early is not for me to say why? God took her home for a reason....... I remember the day she came to the angel room, what a delight and added pleasure she was to our room....to end so tragically, so young..... Out of the blue today while in my angel room Aspenrose put a link there. Of all people is was fro Roanbrat.... Remembering her sweet little strokes on the keyboard. She is in my heart forever.....Love to you Lisa. we will someday be joined and I will get to meet you in person.....God Speed to you and all who knew her....
